Saturday, November 22, 2008

Good stuff...

I would give credit where credit is due but I am not sure of the persons name that wrote this. But it was not Enjoy. 

Sin makes our armor vulnerable to attack from Satan, who then gains permission from God to attack us in the area where we have failed to uphold righteousness. If we break down in moral purity, Satan comes in and establishes a stronghold. If we give place to bitterness and unwillingness to forgive, we will break fellowship with God and others. If we become money-focused, we will fall into greed and deception. It is a vicious cycle.

Tuesday, November 4, 2008

Ten facts remain, even after this election regardless of who wins...

1.  The Bible will still have all the answers.

2.  Prayer will still work.

3.  The Holy Spirit will still move.

4.  God will still inhabit the praises of His people.

5.  There will still be God-anointed preaching.

6.  There will still be singing of praise to God.

7.  God will still pour out blessings upon His people.

8.  There will still be room at the cross.

9.  Jesus will still love you.

10.  Jesus will still save the lost.


Isn't it great to know who is in control?

Monday, November 3, 2008

You say to"may"to; I say to"maw"to...

This entry is something I came across that I thought I would share. I am sure it is nothing you have not heard before but still great information...

"I can't believe you think I said that," I complained to my wife. "I was simply trying to explain that I don't have the same feelings about that issue as you do." Her response left little empathy for my position because of the tone in which I responded to her. We resigned ourselves to agree to disagree.

We all see things through our own set of glasses at times. Men view things differently than women. Bosses see things differently than employees. One ethic group will see a situation totally different than another. Our life experiences, our past treatment of circumstances and our personalities all contribute to how we view situations in daily life.

Perception is often each person's reality whether that reality is true or not. Your perception of a situation is going to dictate your response more than the actual reality of it.

Whenever conflict arises from viewing things differently there is really only one way to resolve the difference. Usually the other person is offended by the tone of the other more than the position that is taken. If the other person is offended, we can only offer a few words: "I'm sorry. Will you forgive me for my tone?"

Humbling ourselves is the only way to resolve the relational breach. This does not mean you must agree with the other person's position, it simply means you acknowledge their right to their position and you apologize for the manner in which you responded to their statements. This will usually allow most conflicts to avoid a breach in the relationship.

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

Ephesians 4:2-3

Be completely humble and gentle; be patient, bearing with one another in love. Make every effort to keep the unity of the Spirit through the bond of peace. 

Carrots, Eggs, & Coffee!

A young woman went to her mother and told her about her life and how things were so hard for her. She did not know how she was going to make it and wanted to give up, She was tired of fighting and struggling. It seemed as one problem was solved, a new one arose. 

Her mother took her to the kitchen. She filled three pots with water and placed each on a high fire. Soon the pots came to boil. In the first she placed carrots, in the second she placed eggs, and in the last she placed ground coffee beans. She let them sit and boil; without saying a word.

In about twenty minutes she turned off the burners. She fished the carrots out and placed them in a bowl. She pulled the eggs out and placed them in a bowl. Then she ladled the coffee out and placed it in a bowl. Turning to her daughter, she asked, ' Tell me what you see.' 

'Carrots, eggs, and coffee,' she replied. 

Her mother brought her closer and asked her to feel the carrots. She did and noted that they were soft. The mother then asked the daughter to take an egg and break it. After pulling off the shell, she observed the hard boiled egg. 

Finally, the mother asked the daughter to sip the coffee. The daughter smiled as she tasted its rich aroma. The daughter then asked, 
'What does it mean, mother?' 

Her mother explained that each of these objects had faced the same adversity: boiling water. Each reacted differently. The carrot went in strong, hard, and unrelenting. However, after being subjected to the boiling water, it softened and became weak. The egg had been fragile. Its thin outer shell had protected its liquid interior, but after sitting through the boiling water, its inside became hardened. The ground coffee beans were unique, however. After they were in the boiling water, they  had changed the water. 

'Which are you?' she asked her daughter. 'When adversity knocks on your door, how do you respond? Are you a carrot, an egg or a coffee bean? 

Think of this: Which am I? Am I the carrot that seems strong, but with pain and adversity do I wilt and become soft and lose my strength? 

Am I the egg that starts with a malleable heart, but changes with the heat? Did I have a fluid spirit, but after a death, a breakup, a financial hardship or some other trial, have I become hardened and stiff? Does my shell look the same, but on the inside am I bitter and tough with a stiff spirit and hardened heart? 

Or am I like the coffee bean? The bean actually changes the hot water, the very circumstance that brings the pain. When the water gets hot, it releases the fragrance and flavor. If you are like the bean, when things are at their worst, you get better and change the situation around you. When the hour is the darkest and trials are their greatest  do you elevate yourself to another level? How do you handle adversity? Are you a carrot, an egg or a coffee bean? 

May you have enough happiness to make you sweet, enough trials to make you strong, enough sorrow to keep you human and enough hope to make you happy. 

The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything; they just make the most of everything that comes along their way.. The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past; you can't go forward in life until you let go of your past failures and heartaches. 

When you were born, you were crying and everyone around you was smiling. 

Live your life so at the end, you're the one who is smiling and everyone around you is crying. 

Friday, October 24, 2008

39 lbs. and 41"...

Those are the statistics provided by the doctor on my son! Below is him being happy as can be inthe waiting room! WooHooo!

Monday, October 20, 2008

"Ultimately, man should not ask what the meaning of his life is, but rather must recognize that it is he who is asked. In a word, each man is questioned by life; and he can only answer to life by answering for his own life; to life he can only respond by being responsible. " - Viktor Frankl
1905- , survivor of Nazi concentration camps at Auschwitz and Dachau, medical doctor and professor of psychology from the school of existential psychology.

"Truth resides in every human heart, and one has to search for it there, and be guided by the truth as one sees it. But no one has the right to coerce others to act according to his own view of truth. " - Mahatma Gandhi
1869-1948, Indian leader. Hindu nationalist leader and social reformer.

Saturday, October 18, 2008

Our progeny deserve the best...

in these times we must work even harder than before. You have to think in ancient times our influence on our children was much stronger. Immense amounts of media outlets including the internet has created so much more that influences the lives of our children that it is of the utmost importance for us to focus more on our influence. Our children are so malleable and yet so many individuals let their children be influenced by whatever it is out there while they do their own thing. I am fortunate enough that the mother of my son has not faltered in her role as a parent. 

I believe a lot of what has caused the nation to get where we are is not a result of the war or the credit/mortgage crisis. But rather years of neglect of our domestic education system and the faltering of assistance to American citizens. Additionally, parenting in and of itself has caused lots of issues in our society as well. We have stepped away from the fundamentals that made this nation great. Does anyone else find it strange that education has had minimal exposure throughout the lengthy campaign for this presidental election? I have not been watching as much lately but I have not heard that word come out of either candidates mouth in recent weeks. I am disappointed, and find it to be inscrutable that this is not a bigger issue. we spend millions (probably even billions) to educate people in other countries; yet our own state of Mississippi has one of the lowest literacy rates of any progressive nation in the world. Michigan is quickly gaining ground to be a leader in unemployment and is quickly becoming an economic disaster for many.

Do not get me wrong, I am not anti-philanthropy. But at what point will we shift our focus back our domestic issues rather than continue to go to everyones aide while the state of our own nation continues to deteriate?

I digress...I am probably not making sense and to be honest as of late I do not understand myself. Just as this entry in my blog jumped around my thoughts have been doing this for weeks now so I hope you cold follow this. 

Back to what triggered me to write this entry after an emotional ride this video took me on I wanted to share it with all of you and ask you to share it with every father you know. 

Thursday, October 16, 2008

Innocuous manipulation; or is it?...

I know that I have acquired three to four regular readers and I know I have not been writing as of late (nothing of substance anyway) and for that I apologize. Well, here is more writing without substance; but, it made me laugh when I needed a smile so I thought I would share.

Young Chuck, moved to Texas and bought a Donkey from a farmer for $100.00. 
The farmer agreed to deliver the Donkey the next day. 
The next day he drove up and said, 'Sorry son, but I have some bad news, the 
donkey died.' 
Chuck replied, 
'Well, then just give me my money back.' 
The farmer said, 
'Can't do that. I went and spent it already.' 

Chuck said, 
'Ok, then, just bring me the dead donkey.' 
The farmer asked, 
'What ya gonna do with him? 
Chuck said, 
'I'm going to raffle him off.' 
The farmer said, 
'You can't raffle off a dead donkey!' 
Chuck said, 
'Sure I can. Watch me. I just won't tell anybody he's dead.' 
A month later, the farmer met up with 
Chuck and asked, 'What happened with that dead donkey?' 
Chuck said, 
'I raffled him off. I sold 500 tickets at two dollars a piece and made a 
of $898.00.' 
The farmer said, 
'Didn't anyone complain?' 
Chuck said, 
'Just the guy who won. So I gave him his two dollars back.' 
Chuck now works for the government. 

Friday, October 10, 2008

Fighting off a lackadaisical spirit...

If we took the time to sit and count our blessings; just how long would that take us? 

It would take hours...possibly even days. You disagree? Well you should try it. You have life, family, friends, your computer and Internet connection you are using to read this, the power used to power that computer, talents, skills (like the ability to read you are currently using)...get the picture? 

I challenge you all to begin that list. You will not complete it in one sitting but at least initiate the process. Next, I would like for you to rate some of those blessings. Now take the top five (or more) and when you wake up in the morning be grateful for those things. Thank God for those blessings (or just be grateful if a non-believer). You will be amazed at how your day will start off on a positive track. If you make this a habit you will find that you will begin to be more grateful on a more consistent basis throughout each and every day. 

Then as you begin to share your blessings with others you will become infectious with that positive attitude you carry. It is truly an amazing thing. 

As time goes by ask yourself this...are you hopeful, optimistic, and encouraging? Do you associate with like-minded people? Human emotions are truly contagious. If you hold these positive traits you will begin to attract the same. However, if you go into groups that are naysayers and pessimistic trying to "make a positive difference" you had better be VERY strong. Otherwise your attitude will soon, like those around you, become cynical and negative. 

So let us all begin to be grateful for what we do have and encourage and support those we are in contact with. This as most of what I write about is not easy. I never claim any of it to be so. With that being said, is anything worth having really easy? 

Now you decide. 

Wednesday, October 8, 2008

Uncertainty and consequences...

The uncertainty references the next few months of my life. Since recently discovering I have a son I have done much to change my lifestyle and everything in an attempt to be with him in whatever way possible. Meeting my son a couple of weeks ago was truly an amazing experience and went perfectly (obvoiusly excluding having missed out on the previous time in his life and then having to leave). The time we got together was spent blithely going along with no regard to time. I feel I greatly utilized the time there from when I stepped off the plane until I had to be dropped off at the airport the best I could. Now life has taken a huge turn....emotionally this has been difficult (MUCH more difficult than I could have expected). Obviously I am not omniscient in any sense of the word I now feel that I have to be so careful in everything I do whereas the consequences to my actions can greatly impact my son as well. It has absolutely even further changed the way I go about things on a daily basis. 

That is really all I have for you can see I have not been writing as of late and even my previous two posts sucked and to be honest I disagree with. If I read them in someone elses blog I would never (I meant that last statement). 

Saturday, September 13, 2008

Dispirited region...

I feel like an addict and The Weather Channel is my drug. (For any confused individuals out there I am not making a joke, I have friends in the path of the destruction named Ike.) As the sun will rise today, there will be the daunting task of rescue efforts for those that did not heed the warning to leave prior to the arrival of this unforgiving storm. I am still amazed at the number of people that refused to leave their homes. I live more than 300 miles inland from where Ike made landfall and I am fearful of what we will encounter here in this area over the next 24 - 36 hours. Even being so far inland, flash flooding and squalls are imminent. I know that in the coming weeks there will be a number of mendicants in the region. (Not to sound like a broken record) but even being more than 300 miles inland I must admit that even I am concerned that there will be severe damage here once Ike arrives. I could even envision the tree in my front yard (at least what is left of it) to finally give way; and I can only hope and pray that it does not cause any destruction to the house. For anyone that has not followed the storm as closely as myself, the strength of the storm has been much more severe as the second wave has made landfall beyond the eye. There will be much intercessory prayer over the next few hours/days. I just hope to hear minimal numbers on the death toll.

UPDATE (6:37 AM CST): I just heard that people are calling in to agencies stating that there was a "weak warning" about Ike. SERIOUSLY? How much more warning can you provide to the residents in the path of such a destructive force other than "certain death" and "leave or die". What has this world come to that there is such a lack of accountability? It truly turns my stomach! It seems to be so common now that people will bitch and complain about consequences from their own actions (or lack thereof) yet never take responsibility for it. They want to blame everyone else. In my opinion that just shows how weak those individuals are if they are controlled by everything around them and for that I have no empathy. 

Friday, September 12, 2008

Disconcerting conversations and actions...

this post will be abnormal...just as I myself am.

Let me start with the subject line of a spam message I saw in my spam box before deleting them all. It read "Ola? My tits wait you here" Seriously? WTF does that mean?

...moving on...

Next is a conversation I overheard that I truly wish I had not. While I was awaiting a microwavable delight for munch yesterday I heard some employees within my company talking. The part of that conversation that I found so disturbing was this:
Female: "Yes, I am trying to lose weight in a serious way."
Male: "Oh yeah Halloween is coming."
Female: "Exactly, I have to lose 12 pounds before then!"

Again...WTF? I mean I personally (as a male) love any holiday where women like to dress in a provocative manner. But seriously? A diet program just for a slutty Halloween costume? I think I have heard it all now.

...moving on...

Now onto what I find the most difficult to comprehend. When the government and news channels repeatedly relay messages of moribund in relation to landfall of hurricane Ike...why are so many people not adhering to the mandatory evacuation? I realize that evacuating is expensive, a pain in the ass, and an overall nuisance. However, a home can be rebuilt...your life can not. Death is the end of it all. I know that oftentimes throughout history there are evacuations called for and then minimal damage. But have they not seen the radar and satellite images of Ike? These "brave" citizens are just loony in my book. Let me clarify, I know military, police, weather men & women have a job to do but regular citizens need to get the hell out of there. when phrases are used such as "leave or die" and "certain death" among others are used it is time to leave people. The sea wall that is in the Galveston area was built prior to 1904 after 6,000 - 8,000 were killed.

I suppose at this point all we can do is pray for those still in the area.

Thanks for reading just had to get that off my chest. Enjoy your weekend.

Thursday, September 4, 2008


Below is a poem I wrote a couple of years ago. I just ran across it and thought I would share. 

Life is like a roller coaster,

moving up and down. 

One year you may have it all, 

the next you almost drown.


Will it be good or bad times, 

you just can't tell.

Sometimes you will succeed,

and other times you'll fail. 


Do your surroundings make you happy, 

or do they make you sad?

Can things get going good,

or will they continue to be bad?

Just what the future holds,

you will never know.

Just remember this one thing...

What you reap is what you sow.

Wednesday, September 3, 2008

Mental strangulation....

As you can probably tell I have been experiencing a bit of writer's block as of late. Not that my good days produce exceelent posts here...LOL Anyway to fill some time I have compelted a stupid survey for youa ll to read. 

Is smoki​ng one of your turn offs?​
Well, it certainly does not turn me on but I can think of worse habits to have. 

Would​ you ever consi​der havin​g an onlin​e relat​ionsh​ip?​

No I like the real world! 

Do you like the song 'I Kisse​d A Girl'​ by Katy Perry​?​
Never heard it until last week...I would not purchase for my iPod but it is OK I suppose. 

Do you liste​n to your frien​d'​s advic​e when they give it to you?
I always listen, whether or not I follow it is another story. LOL

What'​s the last kind of soup you ate?
Broccoli and Cheese...mmmm

Does it gross​ you out when girls​ don'​t shave​ their​ legs/​armpi​ts?​
Depends on the situation...have they missed a few days or do they resemble primates?

What'​s so great​ about​ the Jonas​ Broth​ers?​
Nothing...they are people jst like you and I. 

Do you curre​ntly have a sunbu​rn?​
I thought that required being in the one I know with a pool invites me over!

Could​ you eat nothi​ng but grill​ed chees​e for a week strai​ght?​
I would prefer not to but of course I could. In fact I love grilled cheese but a full week? 

Who'​s your favor​ite count​ry singe​r?​
Johnny Cash or The Eagles

What color​ was the last drink​ you consu​med?​
Clear (or colorless)

Have your paren​ts ever told you that you could​n'​t hang out with a certa​in perso​n?​
I was going to reply with who's parents have not said this but...look at our world now I am sure it happens more than I would like to think. 

Could​ you last an hour witho​ut talki​ng?​

Whats​ the longe​st you'​ve been hospi​taliz​ed?​
I believe when I got tubes in my ears when I was a wee little lad.

Were you happy​ when you woke up today​
I am happy when I wake up every day. 

What are you liste​ning to right​ now?
It sounds like Rudi Giuliani...TV is in the other room. 

Do you like anyon​e right​ now?
If I did not like anyone right now I would not be very happy when I woke up in the morning now would I?

Who was the last perso​n calle​d you?
Due to terrible grammar here I will assume they meant called me on my phone...that would be my baby's momma!

Has anyon​e told you they misse​d you latel​y?​
I have been told I was "missed" but I am not sure anyone has ever told me they "missed me lately" LOL

Are you a Holli​ster/​Aberc​rombi​e kind of perso​n?​
Although I have never owned or even worn it I would still say yes. One day I may own some...especially if I find it at Ross or Goodwill.

Have you ever liked​ someo​ne who all your frien​ds hated​?
ALL my friends? Umm if I liked that person would they not be my friend? If they hate themselves then I need new friends. 

Have any inter​estin​g conve​rsati​ons latel​y?​
But of to hear them? I did not think so. 

What alway​s makes​ you feel bette​r when you’r​e upset​?​
Slowing down to truly count my blessings. 

What do you wake up to every​day?​
It varies...

Who was the last perso​n to leave​ you a voice​mail?​
Martha Strain calling about the upcoming Mega Reunion at my high school.

How do you feel right​ now?
Getting very sleepy

Do you find it in your heart​ to forgi​ve?​
With God's strength I do!

Anyth​ing you'​re looki​ng forwa​rd to?
An upcoming trip to spend time with my son and his mother, beginning my new position, going to the gym, God and Coffee in the morning, the list could go on and on...I can not even count all of my blessings...the number is far too grreat!

Do you think​ you will be in a relat​ionsh​ip three​ month​s from now?
I do...

Are you curre​ntly wanti​ng any pierc​ings or tatto​os?​
Not at this exact moment no...technically that is what currently means.

Do you have trust​ issue​s?​
Yes...I am far too trustworthy.

Are you open with your feeli​ngs to peopl​e?​
To a fault. 

What is your curre​nt annoy​ance?​
An itch on my back I can not reach...

Do you put ketch​up on top of your frenc​h fries​ or on the side?​
I do not use that vile substance on anything. 

Who are you curre​ntly talki​ng to?

Do you want to get marri​ed?
I do...​

Last perso​n you block​ed on MySpa​ce?​
I never have blocked anyone...unless you count anyone not on my friends list. 

Do you belie​ve in true love?​
As opposed to false love? I do...

When was the last time you were disap​point​ed?​
Not sure...probably earlier (I am very hard on myself)

Is anyth​ing happe​ning tomor​row?​
Life...what else do you need?

How are you feeli​ng latel​y?​
Healthy and alive! Oh and GRATEFUL!

Have you ever punch​ed someo​ne in the face?
Yes.....hey he was physically abusing his woman...what would you ahve done?

Last four texts​ in your phone​ are from:​
My bank, and three from Twitter.

What does the last text messa​ge you got say?
--A user has logged into your account.
That is right biatches...I get text when ther eis activity on my

Tuesday, September 2, 2008

The anthropomorphic browser...

is what Google released today. I was so anxiously awaiting to get home and check this out. I must tell you that it is pure greatness. So you can go here to read about Google Chrome. Even better you can go here to download it. This thing loads faster than any other browser. I like the front page feature of making easy access to the most visitied sites as well. That is all for now, just check it out. I have personally already converted (even though it is in beta). The best part is, that everything from Firefox was imported in so once installed I literally did nothing but set my home page and set it as my default browser. Wah lah! I am finished and browsing faster than ever.

P.S. -
Below is a video with the engineers at Google explaining more about the new browser.

Despondent residents...

that must have been the feeling of many of the residents of New Orleans as they got shipped out of their, homes, neighborhoods, and cities for the second time in a matter a just a few years. But, we can say everything held up and the storms more southern path made things much less pervasive to the cities levy systems and flood zones. Let us just hope and pray that the newly developing storms will not build into destructive giants terrorizing all in their paths.

With that being said I am personally looking forward to the possibility of some storms here that will bring us more rain (and hopefully cool us back off after we have been creeping back into the high 90's and close to triple digits again).

As you can see here it should not be long before we get some wind/rain from this Gustav fellow! I am hoping by lunch time I am watching the rain come down from my desk.

P.S.- You can see Gustav is quickly moving further inland...this satellite image is only two hours beyond the previous one.

P.P.S. - Let us pray that Hanna, Ike, and the potential for (Josephine) find other paths to take to avoid the damage seen in the Caribbeans and our Gulf Coast!

P.P.P.S. - Twelve hours later..all I can say is Gustav is a tease!

Monday, August 25, 2008

Parochial assent...

that is what I made with God approximately nine months ago. At that time I was alone, depressed, miserable, bored, disgusted with myself and although making the most money I had ever made in my life I was empty. So I made an elementary commitment to begin to live a better life. That takes an immense amount of discipline.
Culture of Discipline
1. Disciplined people
2. Disciplined thought
3. Disciplined action
The combination of those three things will inevitably lead to Great Performance.

You have to do this in all aspects of life. Your relationships, your job, your family, friendships, etc. This can be a struggle. especially in this day and age where we all have become so "busy" that we have trouble finding the time to do the things we know we need to. This is where we begin to fail. We have become slaves to time. We are the only ones that control what we do, how we do it, and more importantly when we do it. For those may be saying "God controls it" control it. However, God will bless us if we do things as he wishes us to do. How about this:

Colossians 3:23 - Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for men.

That is exactly what I have been doing. I started a new job through a staffing agency at the beginning of July. The pay is low, I get screamed and cursed at most of the day, and there are some individuals there which seem to be on vacation rather than at work. With all of that going on I continued to do just as we were told in the aforementioned scripture. I went in doing the best that I could, day in and day out. I did not worry about anyone else and what they were doing (unless they asked for my assistance or advice). I started work on time, took my allowed breaks as given, and worked overtime on occasion to go above and beyond (and I did all of this joyfully). The entire time I have thanked God every morning for the job and for giving me strength, wisdom, and courage to be the best I can be from the beginning of my shift until the end. All of this resulted in my production being higher than anyone else within our department. Remember I am new and I am working with individuals, some of which have been there for several years now. Non-believers may be saying that it is coincidence. That is fine, I can not force you to believe. However, I can be the expert witness that I am and advise you that all of my hard work and faith have now paid off.

Here are a few facts: On average most individuals (of the few that last) work there for nine months to a year before being hired on as a permanent employee. After only four weeks I was notified that I had received a raise based on my performance. Not a huge raise, but a raise none-the-less. Last week (on Monday) I received a call from another department within the company calling me in response to my resume that I had posted online. It was for a permanent job within the company. Thursday I interviewed and today I got the call that I have in fact been offered the job (informally). They are drafting the offer letter and have to work out the details of buying out my contract with the staffing agency.

So now you tell me...

Was this just a result of my hard work and diligence or are God's fingerprints all over this scenario. I think you know where I stand.

P.S. - "You can accomplish anything in life, provided you do not mind who gets the credit." - Harry S. Truman

Sunday, August 24, 2008

Injurious lack of support for alternatives...

Here is some food for thought.

Now I already know some responses will be with everything negative or why it will not work. Well let me ask you this...
Additionally, I can already hear the corn argument about how it takes away from the dinner table..and you know what you are right. But we could easily use switchgrass. If you do not know much about switchgrass, I would highly encourage you do to some research on it.

Have you found the perfect plan? I did not think so. Why? Because "the perfect plan" does not exist. Now let us stop arguing and being part of th problem and let us begin to be part of the solution as a few of the regulars to this thread are and have been doing for quite some time now. I also want to know how many of you that will read this have ever contacted your congressman?

In the meantime we continue to send this nations riches to other countries and be their slave (in a sense of the word).

Did you know that Henry Ford's Model T (1908 - 1927) was the first flex fuel vehicle ever produced? The carburetor was specially designed so that the settings could be adjusted so the engine could run on either alcohol or gasoline. Why did this stop in 1927? Because of cheaper alternatives (oil and gas). Well, that is no longer the case.

Our government needs to have funding and subsidies put into place to assist the research and development of these alternatives. (Not to mention education which would have a positive lasting impact on everything in this nation over time.)

WOAH! I will step off my soapbox for now. This post will likely confuse some anyway the way I jumped around. But the brain works exponentially faster than my fingers.

P.S. - Not sure where this all came

Self-effacing nepotism...

may not seem to go together very well but that is where I am currently at in life. I have always been one to be the life of the party and will admit that I have a slight case of narcissism. However, when I discovered that I have a son it truly changed everything. It changed my attitude of life, my goals and aspirations, and most importantly my day to day actions.

Many still inquire when I tell them about the last three years that I have missed out on. I continue to tell them it is of the past and can not be changed. I make them aware that I am focusing on the present and what needs to be done to be there and have a positive impact on my sons life in the future. The present is all we can truly control and the choices we make now will obviously control consequences and many circumstances we experience in the future.

I also am grateful for how wonderful a job his mother has done in raising him thus far. He is very polite, happy, and respectful. How do I know this? (you ask) Well, I have spent much time on the phone with both him and his mother. I am also sure she will appreciate my being in his life so that she can subside from forced animus.

All in all the most difficult part of all of this is to resist the temptation to be prescient in what will be.

Many also ask me if I am nervous about being a father. I tel them that amazingly there is not one ounce of nervousness but rather rather complete excitement. God works in amazing ways and I have had wonderful relationships in the past that involved children albeit none of them were biologically mine. Well, finally by the grace of God that time is now here and I am excited and grateful to have a beautiful, healthy son to which I can be a father. Besides I intend to be fully disciplined and adaptable throughout the process to be the best father I can be. I want to help to develop the best man I can out of my offspring.

A disciplined person that is disciplined in thought and then executes disciplined actions will always have a great performance. That my friends is what I fully intend to do. With that being said I will acquiesce to all other in order to have my son among the top priorities in my life. I love you son!

Saturday, August 23, 2008

Defying nepotism...

no need to show favoritism when it has not been earned. Often times it could simply be the result of a miscommunication or even a language barrier. At times things could even be purified unintentionally which would create an avenue for great untapped resources for which are stumbled across by pure accident. Now you may ask what this post is about or what it means...
Hell I do not know!

Sunday, August 17, 2008

The Universe is big, What an awesome God!

THIS is really fascinating - it's rather dazzling to see it presented this way.








yet, Someone
knows how many hairs are on your head,
and not
even a single sparrow dies apart from His
will (Mt. 10:29-31)!





Perseverance, Patience, and dealing with adversity...

is a difficult thing. The key is not letting those difficulties become pervasive; which I myself have difficulty in that department. Is it normal? Am I weak? Who knows.

Many of you that know me; know that I am an optimist and usually very cheery. The problem with being like I am is that when I do have a bad/tough day it can be severely misconstrued by those I come in contact with. They may feel I am ignoring them, I am angry with them, or whatever else the minds of individuals can create.

But through it all I have God and my son to keep me going! And his mother has been absolutely amazing through this all and it will not be long before we can all be closer and show Andrew what family is and should be.

Erroneous fame...

well the day has come when my blog was actually featured somewhere. WOW. See what happens when you finally write something that reads well and is actually worth posting? I truly wish I could write easily read entries on a daily basis. But hey just getting featured gave me something to write about.


Wednesday, August 13, 2008

Antiquated joy...oxymoron? Absolutely!

I often times hear friends, family, colleagues, etc. all complaining about how bad life is and that "back in the day" they were happy. I used to have this same mindset. But, is it not true that we are the only ones that have the power to choose our attitude and emotions? We are in control whether you realize it or not. We can not continue to blame our poor management, or the abusive ex, or even the idiot on the road in front of us. WE...I repeat WE choose how we react to every situation in life. Am I sitting here telling you that it is easy? HELL NO! It is one of the most difficult things in life. That is why you will hear individuals say suicide is the easy way is the hard part. Life is meant to be a challenge. If we we are not challenged on a daily basis would we not become stagnant in our development?
So joy, happiness, and all other goodness is ours to have. It is a fact that we may experience trials and tribulations in life...we may wind up homeless or unemployed and have to sell off everything we own. But you know what? You would still be alive. So instead of sulking and being depressed about our situation we need to be proactive in how we are going to pull ourselves out of it.

I would love to continue but I must get ready for work. I hope you all have blessed day!

Monday, August 11, 2008


well today was a good day. I slept in then went to my favorite Starbucks for my morning coffee. I then went to work on a day off for some overtime! YEAH! When I left work I came home changed and went to my gym and got a great workout in. When returning home I then called plenty of places which I needed to handle some financial business. I am trying to get everything lined up to begin paying down some debt while saving as much as possible. I would like to have some money for when I go meet my son for the first time next month! I also now intend to move back to California as soon as possible; which will also require some financial miracles.
Regardless of it all I got a lot done and feel very accomplished!

Track the Olympic games...

Saturday, August 9, 2008

Arrogance or hubris...

can lead to injury. Now that I am a father I have to take mroe time studying the techings of safety. So please heed this warning well.

Saturday, August 2, 2008

Paradoxical sleep...

WOW! What can I say? Last night I went to sleep somewhere between 11:00 and 11:30 PM. At approximately 3:00 AM I was awakened and realized I had a strong urge to use the I did. I then returned to bed as most individuals do at such a ridiculous time on a Saturday morning. Well, I could not get back to sleep. I continued to lie in bed with my eyes closed in total relaxation...

After about 45 minutes I finally realized that I was awake. So I figured I would get online and clean out my inbox since it had not been done since Monday. Added an entry to one of my other blogs with some comic relief. Then off to the gym I went around 5:30. I had a great workout that extended itself into the seventh hour of the day.

At this time you might be asking me how I came up with the title of this entry....bear with me here folks.

I was going to go to breakfast but for some reason I decided half way to my destination to come back home. Upon arrival I thought I would get back online. It was then that I became overwhelmingly tired. SO I went to lie down on the bed; right on top of the comforter and all. I dosed off for a while. Within a few minutes I got back up, turned off the light, and got cozy under the covers. At some point beyond 8:00 AM is when things got weird...

Whereas I have no idea how time works when in REM sleep I could not tell you the time but, I began to dream. Several (completely random) people from my church and one former co worker were all at the 24 Hour Fitness in a back room where I arrived for a home group. [Home group, for those that do not know, is just what my church uses to describe when groups fellowship outside of the church. It could be bible study, just hanging out, etc.] I come in being my usual social self saying my hellos, likely disrupting what they had going prior to my arrival (sorry)...I digress...

Next thing I know after some good times and fun conversation I go to leave. In the parking lot I find that my Toyota Camry that I drive had been broken into and badly vandalized. Initially I am ascetic; until further review. As I look over everything I begin to experience an array of emotions as most anyone would from such a hostile attack on ones personal property and belongings. I get into the car and then realize I need to call the police so I get back out shut the door and work on making sure everything is as it was when I discovered this atrocity. At this time a pick up truck pulls up and a shirtless man (looking as though high as a kite on meth-amphetamines) pulls up and tells me "I saw the guy, he was the one in the hat with the guys in gold".


He steps out of the truck and moves in closely, "I saw him...I know who it was."

"Well give me a pen and paper so i can write this down."

He halfway gets back into his truck and fumbles around until he finds a pad of paper and a pencil. The pad of paper was pink and unopened. That struck some curiosity in my part but I opened it and was ready to write. The man was getting uncomfortably close to me as though he was trying to dry hump my leg. I backed away and turned around to find my Camry had turned into a Budget rental truck!

(WTF is going on you ask? I have no idea.)

I can see that everything was taken except my college books and papers that I wrote. I then go back into the gym for assistance. Then things get foggy...I do not ever remember getting assistance and I then woke up. Now here I am writing about it. One of the even more significant things about this is that I rarely ever remember a dream. I sure wish I could interpret them.

Oh well...thanks for reading I am off to begin my day. I have a ton of chores to do. Maybe I should go by my storage today as well...

Just throwing in a little humor....

Tuesday, July 29, 2008

Inscrutable happenings...

Have you ever wanted something so badly that your perception of the situation became distorted? I have.

We can force situations so much that we lose perspective. Patience is a virtue...but damnit why?

The great Aristotle once said, "We are what we repeatedly do. Excellence, then, is not an act, but a habit." Well I will tell you what I find myself doing repeatedly through life....making bad decisions. After all of the time and effort I put into college why am I not in a better situation? Should I dwell on this? On to my point...

I will tell you why...everything happens for a reason and as long as we are constantly learning then we are living a fruitful life that will eventually pay dividends.

Many of you know that I am part native American; Choctaw Indian to be exact. One of my favorite old proverbs from that heritage is this: "Every struggle whether won or lost, strengthens us for the next to come."

How awesome is that?

So the next time you are sitting and wondering how so many things can occur at one given time to try to derail you...remember that you need to be constantly evaluating and analyzing it all to find solutions. We can not sit around talking about problems but rather we need to work on finding solutions. This has almost become a lost art in some parts of our society. Most "problems" are actually opportunities if you simply change your perspective. Is it easy? Hell no. But can it be done?

People do it every hour of every day. So you tell me...

Are you going to be part of the problem or part of the solution? The choice is yours.

"Character is both developed and revealed by tests, and all of life is a test." - Rick Warren

Monday, July 28, 2008

We are exactly where we need to be right now.

It is good to be reminded that we are where we need to be, particularly if we are prone to think we are missing out on some opportunity or fearful that we are not making significant progress in our careers or other areas. When we doubt that we are doing enough in any regard, this principle helps us quiet down and ready ourselves to peacefully do the next thing. It will always surface.

It is comforting to realize that there are no accidents, no coincidences happening in our lives. What we need to experience, to learn, to teach, in order to complete our journey home, will spring forth when the timing is perfect. We will never have to search in vain for our next assignment. It will capture our attention.

There is never a need for lamentations. If we have not fulfilled some task to our satisfaction, we can redo it. Now. If we have not treated a companion or co-worker respectfully, we can make amends. Now. There is not anything complicated about how to move through this day or these activities. We simply need to walk with the Holy Spirit and we will get to our destination on time.

There are no mistakes in what comes my way today. How I respond depends on who I ask to help me see the circumstances.

Sunday, July 27, 2008

It's been a while... is a survey.

1) Favorite hobby?
I honestly do not know anymore. I suppose surfing the 'net. Sad and pathetic? I know, I have no life.

2) How do you feel about your ex?
I feel that she is a wonderful woman and I wish her the best.

3) Do you own guns?
I do not but I would and hope to one day. Or I could just rent them at the shooting gallery.

4) What flavor do you add to your drink at Sonic?
I do not order drinks at Sonic I have my Nalgene bottle of water.

5) Do you get nervous before doctor appointments?
No, I no longer have insurance so there is no need for doctors appointments!

6) What do you think of hot dogs?
I think that hot dogs are fairly disgusting; but I can not say that I never eat them.

7) Favorite Christmas song?
I have no idea.

8) What do you prefer to drink in the morning?
I prefer water over anything; but coffee can help kick start a rough morning.

9) Can you do push ups?
Perfect ones...

10) Can you do a chin up?
I can but, not to the point of perfection

11) What's your favorite piece of jewelry?
My high school class ring that my mother purchased for me.

12) Do you like blue cheese?

13) Ever been in a car wreck?
I have been in several and I wish I had photos of the car when I got out. I am lucky to be alive (times two).

14) Do you have ADD?
I am not sure what I have but it is disruptive to my life at times.

15) What's one trait that you hate about yourself?
I do not "hate" anyone trait about myself but I wish I was a little more patient. However, I feel that my level of patience has grown exponentially over the last few months.

17) Name 3 thoughts at this exact moment?
-I want to squeeze my boy
-'Wanted' was kind of cheesy
-I ate too much....again

18) Name 3 things you bought yesterday?
1. A movie ticket
2. Services rendered for dry cleaning
3. Alcoholic beverages

19) Name 3 drinks you regularly drink?
Water, then on a MUCH lesser scale...Orange Juice and coffee.

20) Current worry?

21) Current hate right now?
No hate here

23) How did you bring in the New Year?
Doing a thorough (and I mean THOROUGH) cleaning of my kitchen. Wish you had been there? Well I do New Years sucks alone...

24) Where would you like to be right now?
With Andrew and Amy at the pool.

25) Name three people who might complete this?
Amanda, Kelley, and that cheating?

26) Do you own slippers?
I do not

27) What shirt are you wearing?
Just a plain greenish t-shirt.

28) Do you like sleeping on satin sheets?
I think satin sheets are a waste...

29) Can you whistle?
In several different ways...

31) Would you be a pirate?
I would want to meet the captain, tour the ship, and meet some colleagues before fully committing.

32) What songs do you sing in the shower?
I do not sing in the shower.

33) Favorite girl's name?

34) Favorite boy's name?

35) What is in your pocket?
Vitamins, car keys, and wallet.

36) Last thing that made you laugh?
Hancock, funny stuff in that movie

37) Best bed sheets as a child?
Probably football, I do not remember

38) Worst injury..
Too many to list, if I HAD to pick just one...maybe severing my tendon in my thumb.

39) Do you like where you live?
I love it here; I forgot how great it is...

40) How many TVs do you have in your house?
There are two but I never watch them.

41) Who is your loudest friend?
I think I am...

43) Does someone have a crush on you?

44)Favorite book?
The Bible

46) What is your favorite candy?
Cherry Sours

47) Favorite Sports Team?
Miami Dolphins

48) What song do you want played at your funeral?
Die Mother-&^!$%# Die Mother-&^!$%# Die....j/k (but how cool would that be?) Not sure ask me later.

49) What were you doing 12 AM last night?
Drinking and playing photo hunt

50) What was the first thing you thought of when you woke up?
That I am going back to sleep (which I did)

The exhortation of Google...

I noticed that the ads showing on AdSense were not very uplifting so I am producing a positive and optimistic blog entry in an attempt to counter the ads being shown. Because we all know that love and devotion will lead to immense happiness and the glass will be half full.

OK I am tired and going to bed. Let us hope I included enough keywords to help the pendulum swing back into positivity.

Saturday, July 26, 2008

PC vs. Mac the final edition...

Bill Gates vs Steve Jobs Flash Game

Sirius embryonic growth...

It is official, the FCC approved the acquisition of XM Satellite Radio Holdings Inc. (XM) by Sirius Satellite Radio Inc. (Sirius). I for one am happy, relieved and a bit confused as to why it took so long. Sometimes I believe our government spends far too much time on matters other organizations could take care of and resolve. For example, while Congress is holding cases about steroids, and presidential nominees are running around as though they election has already been won; we have a credit crisis on our hands, large financial institutions folding, and other countries (primarily India and China) on their way to surpassing us in technology and medicine in the next 10 - 15 years. Oops...I digress...

Many of you know that I have been a lifetime Sirius subscriber for several years now (glad I locked in my lifetime subscription before the Both companies have been experiencing severe losses annually since their inception into the entertainment industry. I think that this will be great for the satellite radio company whereas 2009 should show their first year of profits! As of today, the only downfall I can see to this new beginning is that they could lose out on renewal of some of their contracts. Howard Stern, NFL radio, NASCAR, etc. Sirius previously won most of the battles when XM was in the mix of battling for those contracts. Now the competition (in satellite radio) has been eradicated. I understand that you have traditional radio, Internet radio, HD radio, podcasts, etc. that is where my concern begins. These other forms of entertainment have not experienced years of losses like Sirius and XM. They will have more expendable funds available at the time of renewal . Previously, satellite radio enticed Howard Stern to join them mainly in part to the FCC regulation (or lack thereof) and his ability to be more vulgar and curse without any financial repercussions/fines. With the growing popularity of podcasts the same can be done. Additionally, he could do these himself and cut out the middle man in the process. Podcasts are low costs, easy to do, and can be done by virtually anyone with proper equipment (most of which is included when you purchase a new computer).

*Steps down from the soap box*

Well, I will stop for now. If you are still reading and bored to tears then I apologize...I am even beginning to bore myself. But those of you that know me personally you know that I am a nerd and this is one of the many abstract things that I enjoy reading (And evidentially now writing) about...LOL. I am trying to put more thought into my writings and make it more enjoyable to readers. I hope that over the next few months you can all witness progression. I also hope you all enjoy your weekend!

*UPDATE* (7/28/08)
Here is a great article on the topic.

Friday, July 25, 2008

Why go to church?

A Church goer wrote a letter to the editor of a newspaper and complained that it made no sense to go to church every Sunday. "I've gone for 30 years now," he wrote, " and in that time I have heard something like 3,000 sermons. But for the life of me, I can't remember a single one of them. So, I think I'm wasting my time and the pastors are wasting theirs by giving sermons at all."

This started a real controversy in the "Letters to the Editor" column, much to the delight of the editor. It went on for weeks until someone wrote this clincher:

"I've been married for 30 years now. In that time my wife has cooked some 32,000 meals. But, for the life of me, I cannot recall the entire menu for a single one of those meals. But I do know this.. They all nourished me and gave me the strength I needed to do my work. If my wife had not given me these meals, I would be physically dead today. Likewise, if I had not gone to church for nourishment, I would be spiritually dead today!"
When you are DOWN to nothing.... God is UP to something! Faith sees the invisible, believes the incredible and receives the impossible! Thank God for our physical AND our spiritual nourishment!

Thursday, July 24, 2008


A man was sleeping one night in his cabin when suddenly his room filled with light, and God appeared. The Lord told the man he had work for him to do, and showed him a large rock in front of his cabin. The Lord explained that the man was to push against the rock with all his might.

So, this the man did, day after day. For many years he toiled from sunup to sundown, his shoulders set squarely against the cold, massive surface of the unmoving rock, pushing with all of his might. Each night the man returned to his cabin sore and worn out, feeling that his whole day had been spent in vain.

Since the man was showing discouragement, the Adversary (Satan) decided to enter the picture by placing thoughts into the weary mind, 'You have been pushing against that rock for a long time and it hasn't moved.' Thus, he gave the man the impression that the task was impossible and that he was a failure. These thoughts discouraged and disheartened the man. Satan said, 'Why kill yourself over this? Just put in your time, giving just the minimum effort; and that will be good enough.'

That's what the weary man planned to do, but decided to make it a matter of Prayer and to take his troubled thoughts to the Lord. 'Lord,' he said, 'I have labored long and hard in your service, putting all my strength, to do that which you have asked. Yet, after all this time, I have not even budged that rock by half a millimeter. What is wrong? Why am I failing?'

The Lord responded compassionately, 'My friend, when I asked you to serve Me and you accepted, I told you that your task was to push against the rock with all of your strength, which you have done. Never once did I mention to you that I expected you to move it. Your task was to push. And now you come to Me with your strength spent, thinking that you have failed. But, is that really so? Look at yourself. Your arms are strong and muscled, your back sinewy and brown; Your hands are calloused from constant pressure, your legs have become massive and hard. Through opposition you have grown much, and your abilities now surpass that which you used to have. True, you haven't moved the rock. But your calling was to be Obedient and to Push and to Exercise your Faith and Trust in My Wisdom. That you have done. Now, I, my friend, will move the rock.'

At times, when we hear a word from God, we tend to use our own intellect to decipher what He wants. When actually what God wants is just simple Obedience and Faith in Him. By all means, exercise the faith that moves mountains, but know that it is still God, who moves the mountains, when everything seems to go wrong

Just P.U.S.H.!

When the job gets you down

Just P.U.S.H.!

When people don't do as you think they should

Just P.U.S.H. !

When you can't find the right work

Just P.U.S.H.!

When your money is 'gone' and the bills are due

Just P.U.S.H. !

When people just don't understand you

Just P.U.S.H.!

P = Pray U = Until S = Something H = Happens

Wednesday, July 23, 2008

Inspirational quotes in film mode...

This is pretty cool and can help you relax if stressed. All I ask is that you really sit back, relax, and enjoy it.


Take a couple of moments to breathe deeply and get in a calm place before you watch it.

I'm just sayin'

Tuesday, July 22, 2008

"It is character that communicates most eloquently." - Stephen R. Covey

or "...what we are communicates far more eloquently than anything we say or do."

Admonishment of excuses...

I want to challenge you all today to make yourself aware of your surroundings. No I am not tripping on acid; just stay with me here. Really tune in and focus on everyone around you today. Keep track of how many excuses are made by individuals. Maybe a co-worker was late to work, maybe your spouse forgot to run an errand for you, or maybe you did not go to the gym (again) and make excuses for your self. The possibilities are endless as I am sure you can imagine. point is this; I think we will all realize (and further affirm) that excuses are abundant in our lives.

How we got to this point with such a lack of accountability is beyond me. It is like the old saying about the frog. Throw him in boiling water and he will fight and jump to get out. Put him in cool water and slowly turn up the heat he will swim around gleefully until well done. I think this is how our society has gotten to where it is because the change has been so gradual over several decades. I digress...

What we all need to try to do (because we can only control ourselves) is stop with the excuses and seek excellence. If we strive for excellence in all thast we do then there would be no need for excuses.

I could ramble on some more, but I will leave you all with that and you can figure it out in your own way. Good luck with all your future endeavors.

Monday, July 21, 2008

I need a new horse carriage...

because I have a long journey ahead of me now. Today it was confirmed that I am a father! Now why a new horse carriage? Because I need something durable, I have missed out on the the first three and half years of his life. It has not completely sunk in so I have a lot to do which is obvious. This will truly be a turning point in my life that God will have to guide me through in order to do things as quickly and efficiently as possible. His birthday is three days after mine! Oh how I wish I could hold him now. My own flesh and crazy is that? One of the greatest things about this entire situation is his mother is approaching this situation with the mindset of collaboration, not isolation. How amazing is that?
At a point in my life where I was beginning to humble myself and possibly take it too far by it leading to a feeling of insignificance, I am given the good news. There is nothing insignificant at all about being a father! I am working to control a dollop of desperation that I feel to get there as soon as possible to hold him in my arms.

*OK Jeremy breath deeply just as his mother stated*

I am feeling so overwhelmed (but in a good way). I just know that my life is going to get better every single day from here on out. I have no more excuses to mess around and not give 100% to bettering myself and moving forward. Convoluted thought of joy, happiness, and excitement are running rampant through my entire physical being.

Sunday, July 20, 2008

Kiddie pools and Waffle House...

Well went to a raging pool party last evening! (More photos coming soon). It was a good time. I got to see my best (male) friend Kevin for the first time in several months. Last time we hung out we were in Richmond, Virginia at our friend Nikki's house. We continue to follow one another around the country from state to I digress (that will have to be for another post). Anyway I had good times, with good people, and made some new friends.

Then this morning I went to Waffle House for the breakfast of Two eggs scrambled with cheese; hash browns covered, smothered, and peppered; with dry wheat. That is the same thing I have ordered and eaten at the Waffle House since first going there back in the days they had "all you can eat. Anyway, I went into the bathroom to wash my hands and it felt like I was in an airplane lavatory. Very strange. Also every word that every customer and employee was saying into the entire joint seemed to be funneled into the vent going into this cramped dump station. Again, very strange. You may be asking...what did you smoke prior to going to breakfast Jeremy? I assure you I was not high on any drugs.

Anyway...that is all for now. I need to start being productive today!

Friday, July 18, 2008

Tribal neophyte...

I feel that the title explains where I am at in life currently. I feel much like a neophyte...
For over a decade I used drugs, sex, alcohol, and other things to be what made me whole in life. All the while fighting and denying what I knew was right and going with the wrong. I have regrets? NO.
Do I wish I had done things differently? Oftentimes I do.
Do I dwell on the past and let it affect where I am currently. NO.

Did I learn from my past? Absolutely!
Do I have a TON more to learn? OH Yeah!

My point is that we all have done things we should not have done. We have all done things that we may not be proud of. (If you try to say that you have not done the are lying, which you should not do).

Well I wish I could make more of a point here but I can not. I guess this post is more for me to look back on in a few years and say "hmmmm"

the whole reason I started to write this post was to mention how great the show I saw to night was! I went to Seekers Coffee House in Hurst this evening and saw Remnant Tribe. Great band, great music, and great message. I would highly recommend checking them out. I think people of all ages can appreciate their music. I hope you enjoy.

Thursday, July 17, 2008

Contradictory oxymoron?

Notice that I stated I was being lazy in my previous post? Well, I have spent the last several hours working on my blog design now. Did I snag a free template from the web? Of course I did but I have since been tweaking it to make it my own. I also stated in my previous post that I did not want to post two posts today...well here that is. Anyway...

the reason I am writing this post is because I almost went back and deleted a couple of my recent posts. Just as I was about to permanently remove them from existence I stopped. Is that not part of the greatness of blogs? A few months, years, or decades down the road we can look back and reflect on these periods of our life. Who knows one day I may become a good free lance writer...LOL. If that does happen to occur then I can look back and laugh at these posts. (although I am sure I will either way)

Now that I wasted more of your precious life I am going to bed.